So in all the crazy last minute things I had to do today, I forgot to post this.
(Was written August 22nd, the night before I left)
I think I do my most and best thinking at night. In the darkness and silence, you know when all you want to do is sleep but you can’t seem to close your thoughts off. Ever since I can remember I’ve been an over thinker and worrier, which makes these moments in the stillness very busy and sometimes a scary place in my head. But I’ve come to take this as not just a curse but also a blessing. Even though I get short on sleep and think things to death, I feel that it means I care about things. I am willing to take the time to think things through to either reminisce or learn something from it. Or I have a problem!
For those of you who know me, you know that I get stressed out quite easily and don’t handle it too well. How I got through 4 years of university alive is still a mystery to me. SO you can imagine the time I’m having preparing to leave for a year. I thought the hardest hurdle would be my visa, but I got accepted in under a week and thought it would be a breeze from there! But after a month of trying to book flights I have given up that idea. Honestly each day I remember something new I need to do or find out I have to do something I never thought of. But through all this I have learned something. And isn’t that what matters in the end…
I didn’t realize how much we complicate our lives. We are attached to so many things without even realizing it. You can’t just get up and go. You need to inform a bunch people you are leaving and make sure to get enough insurance coverage and make sure you pay your taxes to the right country so you don’t black listed anywhere! Nothing is simple.
So as I sit here at 2am the night before I leave having just finished packing. I am exhausted but also can’t seem to sleep haha. Well at this point there is not much I can do. I just have to trust that I have covered my bases.
Anyways, I’m thankful that I have a supportive family that helps me make the phone calls or researches where and what I needed to do. I was reminded the a month ago by a small and simple note from Jeni to ‘Just Be’. Everything is going to come together.
I found this picture on Pinterest and thought it applies to this blog post. It pretty much speaks for itself.
I have never really fully understood the term ‘bittersweet’ until now. Just want to thank everyone for the goodbye parties and letters/gifts. Made this transition a bit easier :)
See you on the other side,
Dani
